Heavenly Father may know a thing or two and maybe that all powerfull thing is what it’s cracked up to be.  To say the least I’ve had a very stressfull past few months, even year.  And I’m making many changes, good ones, that are suppose to pay off and make the future all bright and shiny.  But in the meantime of making these changes it has been hard, really, really hard.  Somehow I’ve lost myself, and I’m finding her again.  And while I do what I can, the pitifull amount that I can, I pray and I ask and I beg.  And I get, freely, and more than I was expecting.  Nothing world changing, except in my world.  I can cope, I can deal, I can feel the silly, goofy, lovable person I am and not the weirdo, depressed person I’ve become.  I can see the hope in the near future, that maybe I will be able to do all that must be done and it will be good.  That in the meantime of waiting for results of all the work I’m doing, He will make up the difference, until I can go it on my own.  Well maybe not on my own, but definately with much less crippling need.  And somehow I can make it back to where I’m going, so that no more time will be wasted and regretted.  And so that my precious little one can have everything I’ve ever dreamed for him.  And maybe a dream or two of my own can happen and be appreciated.  God IS Good.